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[17 Jul 2004|03:26am] |
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Just leaving a shout to Aunt Deb and cousin Arielle. =)
Oh and people...
I will type about recent events in the near future I suppose.
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[04 Jul 2004|01:30am] |
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It is officially near 3 hours into the 4th of July. I am not exactly sure as to what I am going to do today. Probably bounce around here and there. I would like to celebrate and get a nice buzz on. It seems like only yesterday was the last forth of July to me. Years seem to zoom by so quickly anymore. The last 4th of July I was with some old friends from my job at the time KFC. We watched fireworks from the work parking lot over Plank Road. Then afterwards I spent some time with my cousins and also hung out with my late friend, Sam. It wasn't a half bad forth of July as far as I can remember. I do believe I smoked a blunt and drank some Hennessy.
I would like to get some bombs to play with. I think my friend Henery has an idea where we can get some good shit for a good price and it isn't even far from town. You can not call any sort of attempt to celebrate a true success without some sort of fireworks or noise makers! So believe me, it will be hooked up.
The last few days we have been moving my mother and sister from their old residence to their new and current place. My friend Henery was a nice help. Basically he, I, and Keith (my mom's boyfriend) did most of the lifting of shit. I do believe that pretty much everything is done now. Today I didn't help, and I had my reasons. I am sure they worked it out and probably finished it off tonight. Today I started the day by doing some things around my dad's place for him. Then I went outside and spent the majority of the entire day in the blazing sunshine. I did end up getting a little tan. My Uncle Bob and Aunt Verna arrived this evening at my dad's from Florida. They had the 3 kids with them also, Robert, William, and Catherine. I am so suprized how grown up they are getting. More and more every time I see them. They are always excited to see me, it makes me feel good. I love them guys. We were hanging out for the short time they were there at my dad's gameroom. I played a game of air hockey with Catherine and beat her then I played Robert and got my ass kicked, haha. I also raced Will on the car machines. I suppose the reason they are in Pennsylvania is because they wanted to come up and talk to my grandfather. From what I hear he has bad cancer. I just hope to God that things work out for him and he doesnt go through pain, he sure as hell does NOT deserve it. My uncle also reminded me about the QVC job down near where they live at. It starts at 11 dollars an hour and is in near walking distance from where they live. They are offering me a place to stay and I know for a fact that both my aunt and uncle will help me get on my feet. I am in a rut here and can't find myself around here. Things are stagnet and really I am gaining built up depression from it. So I am not out to throw anybody into complete shock, but I am doing it. I am moving to Florida. I just have to take a month and a half to clear some things up here. I have to inform my doctor and dentist as well as my hair cutter. I am going to make sure my probation period is terminated so I can arrive in Florida with a crystal clear record. I also am going to sell my car in the traders guide to pick up some cash flow for the plane ride there and also for extra cash to start with. I am not sure if I am going to take up the offer of a free place to live with my family or not. My friend Hennery is in a deep rut also and needs a place to live and a job for himself. He also istired of this town and state and it is just getting to him and will eventually probably ruin him. So if we can get enough money to get an appartment then we can do that. I am kind of excited about these ideas, because it will show independence on my behalf once again and I just know its going to be good for me.
I will keep everybody updated on this.
Now I would just like to take a moment of my time to wish my most favorite aunt a very merry and happy birthday! *grin*
Well that is all I feel like typing about, it is about 3:30 in the morning and I am nodding at the keyboard. Before I go let me post a poem I wrote last year to honor this holiday we are about to celebrate...
The land a person is conceived into at birth to live a life is strictly fate
There is a true power inside, the majority of us take for granit
Each and everyone's independence should show no repentance
Let your freedom explode from inside by the end of this sentence
Harbor yourself in pure pride, for the bravery applyed
By our soldiers at our side, into battle they ride
All odds and ends open with nothing to hide, with only one choice to decide
Fighting for the sole treasure we'll always have to abide
For the familys who've cried and the soldiers who've died
We show love and care to every single American tonight
To this world we shined a new light, so sharp and bright
So pop all corks and light all joints as we continue to celebrate
Exploding fireworks, for it's the dark night sky we decorate
Jacob Daniel Matuska
HAPPY 4TH OF JULY YA'LL!
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[28 Jun 2004|07:44pm] |
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This summer is jettin by before my eyes. Already wrapping June up. What can yah do? Not shit.
My car is going to hopefully be fixed and inspected so I can use it for whatever job I decide to take. I am going to be working on it tomorrow with Chris, the guy that sold it to me. Then I am going to take it to get new shocks put on and get it ready to go.
I went up to Thunder in the Valley in Johnstown with a couple friends on Saturday night. There was bikes everywhere. Pretty fucking loud too. We stayed up there for some hours and chilled. Last night we went up but they were all leaving. Nothing was going on. We got there in time to see trash all over the streets being picked up and some vendors closing up their shops. I did get to buy the shirt I wanted I seen down there Saturday night though. I went to the vendor that was selling it and asked them about it and they had to dig through boxed to find it for me, haha. It is a Chronic Chopper shirt. There is a chick on the back in skimpy cloths straddling a chopper bike and says below 'Always riding high.' I thought it look so phat, I couldnt pass up the opportunity and bought it. It was only 20 bucks so. I will take a picture of it and try to post it on my website or on here soon. I wish I could find my digital camera cord. I can't put pictures on the computer without it.
So I been missing my Sarah. <333 I LOVE YOU!
I been talking to her off and on and we have plans. Things are going to happen and work well because I know we both have it coming to us. I can't wait to see you.
I am sitting here bored. I cleaned the house for my mom and packed some stuff. They will be moving shortly.
I still am not sure what is going on about a job. As soon as I know I will let everybody in the world know.
Well, goodbye.
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| It's HUMP day, so lets get it on! |
[23 Jun 2004|05:54pm] |
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It's the middle of the week and I finally got my car from the shop yesterday. It is sitting out here at my mom's place. I don't think I am going to work on it today though. I will start tomorrow. Tonight my mom's boyfriend is coming in from Canada to see her. I am cleaning the house up for her and stuff. Tomorrow is her birthday, she will be turning 40. I wish I had some money so I could get her something. I will figure some way to get enough money to fix my car and get it inspected and get my mom something for her birthday tomorrow. My grandfather will probably help me out until I get a new job and pull in my first pay check. I am planning on being back in the work field within the first week of July. Speaking of July, I just realized the 4th will be coming soon. I remember my last 4th, I was living in Altoona with my aunt at the time and working at KFC on Plank Rd. I was working that night and I remember going outside with some of the crew and seeing fireworks everywhere. Then when I got off I spent the night with my cousin Adam and my late friend Sam, god bless his soul. It was an alright 4th, nothing real great that I can remember.
I love my Sarah. I talked to her today a little bit ago. She has been chillin with the celebs lately. She got to see a D-12 show the other day and told me it was wild. She was tied in the center of this gate and right by the stage. She got Bizarre's towl, but she said that it stunk, hahaha. Eww.
Then she met up with a guy she knew from a past college, and he gave her more tickets and gave her a new job. I am not sure the details of what she will be doing exactly, but I am really happy for her and care about her so much! <33
I am going to write a letter to my best friend B.J. tonight. He is still in jail for robbing Sheetz with an armed weapon a few months ago. My friend and I stopped up to visit his mom yesterday and shoot the shit. I found out from her that B.J. will be doing anywhere from 5 to 10 years in there. That is a long time.
Tonight I am not sure what I am going to do. I doubt I will go out with any friends and do anything. My mom's boyfriend Kieth is coming in, as I mentioned earlier. Tomorrow they are going to Altoona to do something for her birthday, probably eat out or something. My sister is in Altoona right now. She stayed at Naomi's last night. I believe they are both coming here tonight, so I probably will stick around and see what they are going to do. I am bouncing back and forth on trying to make a decision if I want to write. I haven't written anything in a good while and kind of feel like I want to make a new poem. If I do I will probably post it here when I am finished. I really want to make a collab poem with somebody, perferably a girl. Whether we do it online or meet up and write it.
I noticed a lot of my live journal friends are currently doing surveys, so even though they seem quite cliché I think I will actually fill one out myself.
Parts that are numbered are not in order.
Seven things you are proud to own:
1. CD Player (5 Disc)
2. TV
3. My Grandfathers WWII Uniform
4. PS2
5. DVD Collection
6. Cloths
7. Car
Seven things to do before death:
1. Live
2. Love
3. Be Loved
4. Find Myself
5. Make a Difference in Somebody's Life
6. Have a Child of My Own
7. See Some of the World
Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1. Her Eyes
2. Her Lips
3. Her Personallity
4. Her Toes
5. Her Voice
6. Her Interests
7. Her Ass
Seven movies that interest me:
1. The Doors
2. Pulp Fiction
3. Reservior Dogs
4. Wonderland
5. Vanilla Sky
6. Wild Things
7. Requiem for a Dream
DO/HAVE YOU:
[Smoke?]: Yes
[Do drugs?]: Used To
[Read the newspaper?]: Not Really
[Pray?]: Once in a while
[Been in love?]: I Believe So
[Gone skinny dipping?]: Nope
[Had a medical emergency?]: Yes
[Had surgery?]: Not Yet
[Ran away from home?]: Yea
[Broke a bone?]: No
[Had stitches?]: Yes
[Played strip poker?]: Yea
[Gotten beat up?]: Yea
[Beaten someone up?]: Yes
[Been on stage?]: Not Yet
[Slept outdoors?]: Of Course
[Pulled an all nighter?]: Yea
[Made out with a stranger?]: Yes
[Been on radio/tv?]: Nope
What about this:
[Dark soda or light soda? (ex: Sprite vs. Pepsi)]: Light
[Chocolate or vanilla?]: Vanilla
[Internet or phone?]: Internet
[Suicidal?]: Now and then
[Stubborn?]: Sometimes
[Open-minded?]: Yes
[Arrogant?]: No
[Patient?]: Not really
[Hyper?]: Depends
[Nice?]: Pretty much
[Happy?]: Depends
[Depressed?]: Sometimes
[Shave your head for $1000?]: Definately
[Like candles?]: Yep
[Believe in soul mates?]: Absolutely
[Believe in love at first sight?]: Yes
[Believe in forgiveness?]: You have to
[Want to get married?]: Eventually
[Want to have kids?]: Eventually
[Ever want to adopt kids?]: Maybe
About me:
[Three words that sum you up]: Caring, creative, unique
[Jewelry worn daily]: Eyebrow Ring and necklaces
[Wallet]: A brown leather Dockers
[Hair]: Dark brown with no style and a mustache and goatee
[Shoes]: K-Swiss
[Cologne/perfume]: Axe
[Eye color]: Hazel
[Weight/Heighth]: 160 lbs./5 foot 8 inches
[Live with parents or independantly]: Mother
[Have any grandparents alive?]: Yes
[Middle name]: Daniel
In the last 24 hours have you:
[Cried]: No
[Bought something]: Yes
[Gotten sick]: A bit
[Sang]: Yes
[Eaten]: Yea
[Been kissed]: No =*(
[Felt stupid]: Yea
[Drank water]: Yes
[Talked to an ex-girlfriend/boyfriend]: Umm, nope
[Talked to the one you have your eye on at the moment]: Yes..
[Had a serious talk]: Yea
[Missed someone]: Yea
[Hugged someone]: No
[Argued with a parent(s)]: Not in the last 24
Social life:
[Best girl friend]: Sarah
[Best guy friend]: Not sure
[Boyfriend/girlfriend]: <3
[Hobbies]: Writing and collecting DVDS
[Car]: 87 Poniac Station Wagon (barf)
[Job]: Currently unemployed
[Attend church]: No
[Like being around people]: Sometimes
True or false:
[I've never been drunk]: F
[I've never smoked pot:] F
[I've never kissed a member of the opposite sex]: F
[I've never crashed a car]: F
[I've never been to Japan]: T
[I've never rode in a taxi]: F
[I've never had anal sex]: T
[I've never had sex in public]: T
[I've never been dumped]: F
[I've never shoplifted]: F
[I've never been fired]: F
[I've never been arrested]: F
[I've never made out with a stranger]: F
[I've never gone on a blind date]: T
[I've never lied to a friend]: F
[I've never been in a car accident]: F
[I've never had a crush on a teacher]: F
[I've never been to Canada]: F
[I've never slept with a co-worker]: F
[I've never skipped school]: F
[I've never called a phone sex line]: F
Your strangest:
[Idea]: To quit school
[Body Feature]: I don't like the size of my head
[Hobby]: Singing
[Friend]: Unsure
[Dream]: I have had quite a few, but can't think of any.
[Opposite sex attraction]: Toes
[Word]: Dykeadellic (Steph)
[Drunken action]: Climbing the railroad lights downtown Patton
[Vacation]: Ohio with Alyssa, Sarah, Naomi, Janine, Katie, Tracey, and Wendy
Favorites:
[Food]: Italian
[Soda]: Sprite
[Color]: Green
[Actor]: Sam Rockwell, Edward Norton, Jack Nicholson
[Actress]: Uma Thurman
[Number]: 3 or 7
[Holiday]: Christmas
[Radio station]: Classic Rock
[Place]: Anywhere peaceful
[Flower]: Wild flowers or lilacs
[Magazine]: None
[Candy bar]: Reese Fastbar
[TV channel]: Spike TV
[Mall Store]: American Outfitters
[General Store]: Wal*Mart
[Fast food]: Taco Bell I suppose
[Restaurant]: Unsure
[Language]: English is all I know
[Time of day]: Evening
[State]: Florida
[Month]: July or September
[Shampoo]: Pert Plus or Herbal Essences
[Possesion]: Many
The last:
[Thing you ate]: Jelly filled Krispy Kream Donut
[Thing you drank]: Milk
[Place you went]: Hastings
[Person you kissed]: Megan
[Person you hugged]: Unsure
[Person you talked to]: Sheep
[Person you IMed]: Naomi
[Song you heard]: No Room For You Here by The White Stripes
Current:
[Current Clothes]: Light brown shorts, a Nirvana T-shirt, and bare feet
[Current Mood]: Mellow
[Current Taste]: Cigarette
[Current Hair]: Poofed
[Current Annoyance]: Time passing
[Current DVD In Player]: Elephant (The White Stripes)
[Current Refreshment]: None
[Current Worry]: No job or money and a broken car
Well that took me like literally an hour and a half! What a waste of time. Feel free to copy and paste this and fill it out for yourself. If you do, make sure you let me know by leaving me a comment on here so I can check it out later.
Well it is nice out and I remain sitting here inside at my mother's house. I have been out a lot lately though, and just feel like doing nothing right now. Actually I really could use a nap, but I am not sure if I am going to do that or not.
Well thanks for reading.
PEACE.
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| Down times.... |
[19 Jun 2004|11:43pm] |
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It feels like I have been having just a bad month this June. Things just haven't been playing out well. I have been fighting with my mom's boyfriend and my dad a lot. My dad is giving me until July first to find a place to stay because I am not welcome there anymore because he thinks it isn't bettering me by being there.
I quit my job at The Miners Rest last week. It was a busy day at work and one of the waiters went home early because the boss is a jackass and let him. So there was one waitress there by herself and I was playing the role of the bustboy. The waitress was swamped with things to take to tables and there was literally people waiting for others to finish eating so they could sit down. So I attempted to help take dishes out to tables and help the waitress even though it wasn't my job to do so. Meanwhile trying to do my thing also. I took some orders back to the kitchen and there was no place to hang them because they holder was full. I tryed to make room and the cook (Joe Hitch Jr.) bitched at me for it. He told me in a dickhead tone of voice to put the slips under the bell that they ring when an order is ready. So I slammed the bell down on the slips and was on my way back out to the mayhem in the lobby. Before I left the kitchen though Joe decided to scream that if I do something like that again he will fire me. Now the problem I had with this was that he didn't have the authority to fire me, he is a cook. The real boss was in the kitchen helping cook at the time and I turned around and told Joe that he couldn't fire me and continued to go on and tell him that only Corey could fire me and he wouldn't because I bust my ass for him. To my suprise Corey let out a sarcastic laugh at me and Joe then laughed also. It was just to much for me, being treated like I don't do shit or something. I walked out to the lobby with a temper hotter than fire and turned right back around in my tracks and marched to the kitchen with much furry. I told them both that they don't have to fire me because I quit. I took my apron off and through it at Joe and told Corey to fuck himself and left. So that is that.
I bought a car off of my cousin's husband. It is a 1987 Poniac Station Wagon, haha. So I knew what was wrong with it before I bought it because he let me know and I knew what was real good on it also. I had 10 days to drive it without worring about the state inspection, so of course I drove it a bit. To my suprise I find I am leaking gas. What a damn good suprise. I had my car sitting downtown out front of my dad's gameroom and some dude told me my car was leaking so I went to see and there was a giant puddle creaping all over the road from my car. There was a bunch of moronic assclowns smoking cigarettes a couple feet away also. So we had to call the fire company and they rang the DAMN LOUD fire whistle. Talk about embarrassment. They came down and told me to move the car and they through some sawdust or something on the gasoline. So anyways I took the car to this guy to get it looked at and to see what would be needed to pass inspection. A couple days later when I talked to him again I found out there is even more wrong with it than I was told about. The back and front shocks are both crap and the brake line isn't in very good condition either. The gas leak is average I was told and I need a light bulb for one of the headlights, which I knew that. So I am going to get the car Monday and bring it back to Patton because Chris, the dude that sold me the car, said that he could help me with the gas leak and the brake line. Then I will probably take it back and see about getting new shocks and inspection completed. This way I can get my ass to Altoona for a new job, which I am in absolute desperate need of.
Well on the up and up I patched things up with my mom's boyfriend and that is a possitive thing surely. I did this today and feel a lot better about it now. Since I couldnt find a way to get my car today I just hung around town today with friends. I ended up shooting some pool and just walking around with people. Something else happened that I am very happy with today, but I am not telling, heh. Believe me it makes me happy though.
So tomorrow I assume will be a dull day because it is Sunday and when isn't Sunday a drag?? Nothing is open and there is really nothing to do. I probably will hang out with a certain somebody though, which will be good enough for me.
Well, it was good to throw and update in here finally. I will be back again....
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It seems like I have been having up and down times and extreme mood alternation like mad crazy lately. Maybe it is just that time in my life. I have been thinking about a lot of things. A lot about my independence and everything involved in my life. I usually choose not to type about such things as this until a decision or solution is made, so...
But when things happen I will be sure to type about it.
Wow, I just wake and baked. Talk about something I haven't done in a long time. I have work today. My next day off isn't until Monday.
Well I went to the pawn shop and purchased more DVD's for my collection and this is my total collection now:
The Ninth Gate
End of Days
Street Fighter
Sugar Hill
Nothing to Lose
Final Destination
Final Destination 2
Chiller
Dragon Fly
Hollow Man
12 Monkeys
Bandits
Blue Streak
The Breakfast Club
Dickie Roberts
8 Mile
Barber Shop
South Park Movie
Ali
Gang Related
Rounders
Wonderland
Suicide Kings
Stir of Echoes
Children of the Corn
Requiem for a Dream
The Texas Chainsaw Massacre
Nightmare on Elm Street Box Set
The Monday Night War
Kill Bill
The Burbs
Bringing Down the House
The Wash
A Civil Action
Vanilla Sky
Dazed and Confused
The New Guy
Y Tu Mama' Tambien
The Rundown
The Fast and the Furious
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Young Guns
Young Guns 2
Analyze This
Analyze That
Empire Records
Matchstick Men
Pulp Fiction
The Doors
Maverick
The Last Boyscout
National Lampoon's Loaded Weapon
Ghost Ship
In The Mouth of Madness
Cabin Fever
Red Dragon
Hannibal
Crime and Punishment in Suburbia
Jason Goes To Hell
Edward Scissorhands
Candyman
The Crossing Guard
The One
The Wedding Singer
Malibu's Most Wanted
Wise Girls
Wild Things
Anger Management
I-Spy
Training Day
Poetic Justice
X2
Terminator 3
I believe that is 81. Well, peace.
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It has been a week full of suprises, and negative ones for the most part. My friend Joe Caroll killed himself with a gun to start it all. Details really are unknown of why it happened, but it did. My sister was very close to him and so was a lot of others. He was 16 years old. So I borrowed my mom's car and my sister and I went up to the funeral.
Other minor shit has occured that just pisses me off throughout the week also. Shit I don't even want to think about right now. But to top it off today I found out another good friend of mine died, Sam. His liver was shot from alcohol and drugs and he passed away. My hope and wishes go out to both of my late buddies, rest in peace forever.
Well on a much lighter note, my DVD collection continues to grow strong. Here it is:
Kill Bill
The Burbs
Ali
The Breakfast Club
Ghost Ship
Maverick
Gang Related
The New Guy
Pulp Fiction
In The Mouth of Madness
Wonderland
Rounders
Vanilla Sky
Requiem For A Dream
The Last Boyscout
The Doors
Nothing To Lose
Hollow Man
Red Dragon
End of Days
12 Monkeys
Final Destination
Final Destination 2
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Bringing Down the House
A Civil Action
Stir of Echoes
The Nineth Gate
Analyze This
Analyze That
Matchstick Men
8 Mile
Empire Records
Natonal Lampoons Loaded Weapon
South Park
The Wash
Y Tu Mama Tambien
Young Guns
Young Guns 2
The Texas Chainsaw Massacre
Cabin Fever
The Monday Night War
Nightmare on Elm Street Series
I joined Ebay and have bid on there for Cabin Fever which I won. I am begining to like this Ebay website. I am bidding on 2 other DVDS that I want to own right now on Ebay. They are Reservoir Dogs and Light It Up.
Welp I am hoping to hit things up on a possitive note starting this weekend which begins tomorrow. I will leave a post on Monday and confirm it.
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[12 May 2004|11:00pm] |
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Well Friday is the last day I am taking the paper route. This is a thought of relief. I am going to miss the extra cash it gives me, but I am getting alright hours at The Miners Rest and really could use the sleep I am going to regain after quitting. The near 300 dollars a month that I will lose out on from giving it up is like a payment for a normal nights rest again, that I haven't had in quite a long time. So yea, that is what is going to happen.
Work at The Miners Rest is going alright. My boss is giving me any extra work he can think of so I can get some more money. I have been doing outside work for additional hours lately. Cutting grass, pulling weeds, movings stuff, cleaning stuff, and that sort of thing. It also gives me an opportunity to get some good sun. This summer is going to be a hot one, I can tell already. I am not complaining though, believe me. I am going to enjoy it. I now have over 1,100 dollars in my savings account towards my car. I decided I am not going to take out a loan and make payments on a car, I am going to buy it with solid cash even if it means I have to save another 5 thousand before I have one. Gas prices are insane right now anyways. I could easily go out and get a used car right now, I have enough money and seen a few for sale in the Traders Guide, but I am going to get something semi new and nice. So yes, another couple thousand of saving should do it. I made it this far, I know I can do it. Then I wont have to worry about payments on the car I chose either. It will be mine! Not many people can say that for themselves.
My dad's gameroom is going to be opening up within a week or two. I know a lot of people are anxious to check it out. We already shot some pool and played some of the games in there when my dad through a graduation party down there for his sister. Just some of the family and friends came over and my dad turned the games on and we all shot some pool and played them and hung out. It was a pretty fun time. He is getting more games real soon and some pinball machines. Also he is getting electronic darts and an air hockey tables. I think air hocky kicks ass. I hope it all works out when he opens up, and I dont see why it wouldn't, so...
My mom is looking to find a new place to live because she is being kicked out of the house she and my sister are in right now. She didnt do anything wrong, it is just that her aunt (who owns it and lives next door) is kicking her out so her daughter can move it. It is a load of shit if you ask me, but that is the way they are. My mom and my sister have a few places in Patton where they might go though, so it is alright.
Well that is about all I have to say.
Peace.
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Just got off of work. Busy ass day. A party of 20 came in and we had to combine a whole dining room of tables for them. All in all it was a good day though. I was in a half decent mood. Tomorrow I am going to pull the shift from hell. I am going to work in the morning and through lunch, possibly go home for a few hours and go back in from evening to night. Almost like a double shift. I need to though because I really really need the money. I just blew the last of the cash in my checking today on some new DVDS when I went down to Altoona early this morning with Sheep. I have 500 dollars in the bank saved for a car and hardly anything in my checking. In my wallet, 15 dollars in cash. That is it. So whatever I make tomorrow I will just add to what is in my wallet and then decide what I want to do with it. I am calling about some grass cutting jobs tomorrow because I might as well start, today was fucking beautiful and like I mentioned, I need the cash!
The DVDS that I got to add to my collection are Requiem for a Dream, Young Guns 2 (which I have part 1 already), Vanilla Sky, and The Doors. Pretty good addition.
Well I am seriously drained, so I am going to go do something that probably consists of smoking and laying down. Just not combinded because that could be dangerous. ;)
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| Ichy |
[15 Apr 2004|08:36pm] |
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Damn I can't quit itching. You figure it out.
Well today I hung out with my friend Steph. She came over to my dad's sometime after noon until about eight. It wasn't to bad of a day outside. I could tell it wasn't going to be from early this morning when I took papers on my sister's bike. The sky was very clear and there were many many stars above. Well the high of today was probably about 60 degrees I believe. However tomorrow is supposed to be just as warm, maybe warmer. I think it is just going to get all better from here. Well Steph and I and of course little Domino (her son) walked down to Boxseat and rented 2 movies. We rented Cabin Fever and Dumb and Dumber'er. I never seen either of them and she seen both of them. Cabin Fever was better then I expected it to be. I haven't watched Dumb and Dumber'er yet. After watching Cabin Fever we just went outside and chilled in the sun for a bit. Dom wanted to go outside, he likes it out there. He likes watching cars and I think pretty much just being out in the air. I played some hacky sack and just talked with Steph and stuff. I haven't ate since earlier today when Steph and I went to Sheetz and got some food. I don't think I am hungry though, I may not eat the rest of the night.
I love my Sarah and can't wait to see her!! I am working my hardest to make a plan to go to Minnesota for the 4th of July to see her and some fireworks. I possibily will be taking my first plane ride ever. That would be interesting. Florida is calling my name, and she has the most beautiful voice. =D It is all about saving money right now, save save save! I have a good chunk saved for a car, but I have to keep going. Things are going to work out, I know they will.
Well tomorrow I go for my second weekend of work at my new job, The Miners Rest. I work Friday from 4 to close, Saturday from 5 to close, and I am not sure what I work Sunday, but I think it is morning shift for some reason. I will find out tomorrow for sure. Bring in some more cash for myself. Soon I should be able to start cutting grass for the few people I've picked up. We just got a week of rain showers so I know the grass is growing pretty good. I was going to go to Altoona this weekend at some point in time because at the mall store Suncoast, which sells DVDS, I have a special Replay Points card I joined a while ago. Every time you buy something there you get points and there is other little ways to earn them also. I know I have some points on the card already, but for 3 days only, which is this Friday, Saturday, and Sunday there is TRIPLE REPLAY POINTS. So I can earn triple of every point I could earn. I want to go purchase a few DVDS because I know it should put me up to enough points to either get 1 or 2 DVDS for free! Anyways, it is hard to go when I realize I have work in the afternoon on all those days. So Sheep and I are going to go down early Saturday morning, like around 10 so we can be back in Patton before 5 so I can get to work. I am glad I found a way down though since it is only for a couple days they are doing this.
Other than that I don't think my weekend will consist of much more. I found a cat carrier from somebody my mom works with. She is going to lend it to me so my pap and I should be taking the cats to the vet sometime next week after he makes an appointment.
Well right now I am just watching WWE's Smackdown. I think I am going to split. Don't worry, I will be back as I always am.
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| These thoughts |
[14 Apr 2004|10:29pm] |
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I would really like to write my first book soon. I have decided to take my shot at a novel. I am trying to gather some ideas but really haven't come up with much. I have time, so it is no biggie. Just wanted to let you all know. If anybody has any suggestions be free to speak upon them.
I have 28 poems now. My most recent is called Love the Junkie and is posted in the entry below of you haven't read it.
I was thinking about what future DVDS would I like to have? So let me shoot off a few that I thought of and would like to add to my collection.
-Training Day
-Vanilla Sky
-Freddy vs. Jason
-Requiem for a Dream
-Out of Time
-Confessions of a Dangerous Mind
-100 Girls
-Bad Boys
-Bad Boys 2
-Blow
-Scarface
-Young Guns 2
I am sure there is more but that is all I can think of right now. Here are some movies I would just like to plainy see soon. Either ones in theatures or ones that let out but havent been released on DVD yet.
-Secret Window
-The Lady Killers
-Eternal Sunshine
-Dawn of the Dead
And that is all I can think of on that too right now. My mind is fuzzed. Anyways, I was also thinking of getting my layout girl to hook the 814 website up with a new layout. Ideas?
I don't know yet, but I have a feeling it will be hot! It always is.
Well I just wanted to drop by quickly. Now bye.
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| Love the Junkie |
[13 Apr 2004|03:42pm] |
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I just wrote this today.
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I have become the epitome of ignominy
Zoned out
Deep within the swirls on each individual square of my Cinnamon Toast Crunch
Wow
A sparkling island poised on an ocean of 2 percent milk
So pretty!
Now if I could only figure out how to use the spoon
Infeasible
The distance between the bowl and the mouth seem infinate
As little puddles induce around the edge of my bowl
In the spur of the moment I become distinguished
And notice the posterior of my spoon is bruised
I realize what I've done
To my left is a blurred vision of a spent needle
Resting peacefully on a soft bed of cotten balls
To my right is, uhm, I don't know, I don't care
Fuck
This spoon was used to liquefy my dope
What's the difference, I am hungry
Look at me now
Just another anecdote of a personal ruin
Just another antidote for my junk head
Baby be a sweet thing and scratch my right shoulder blade
I think there is an ant tap dancing on it
There must be an entire colony of them on my testicles
God the itch
Don't worry honey I won't ask you to touch those
I'll do it myself
Although your nails are looking utterly heavinly to me
Maybe you could just, just...run them down my chest
Run them down my back
You say my pupils have packed up and went on vacation for the day
That makes me smile
I am just obliged that I have you near by
And you love the junkie
Thank you
© 2004, Jacob Daniel Matuska
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| Who's that loungin in my chair... |
[11 Apr 2004|09:45pm] |
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So this morning I was taking papers with my dad, since Sunday
papers are thick he takes me. I don't even know why there was papers on Easter but there was. Anyways, I got out of the truck and see a bunny splattered on the street, blood and guts, dead. I figured it was pretty ironic.
Well I got a new part time job. I work at the Miners Rest in Patton. I started on Friday and also worked on Saturday. The crew I work with are all very cool, which is a big plus. I work with some adorable girls and some cool dudes and nice managers. It isn't very hard, right now I am just busting tables and helping the waitresses and waiters out. When I ran out of things to do I also took it upon myself to help the cooks. Since I was a cook at KFC for a year, it isn't all that new. Some things are different because this place has like any kind of food you can imagin. I like working there so far though. It is extra money. I will probably do Thursday night work down at my dad's game room when it opens and work the weekends at the Miners Rest (Friday, Saturday, Sunday). Also I will continue taking papers every day of the week for a check and I have a few grass cutting jobs. So I will be bringing in some good doe this summer. I am going to keep saving in hopes to see Florida by the end of this summer or this winter. I am trying to make plans to get to Minnesota to see my girl Sarah for the Forth of July. Hopefully I can get a car before then so I can. I am working on it.
I am glad this weekend is over, I am ready to get some rest and start the week. I have to run to the bank and take care of some buisness and I have to take my cat April and my pap's cats to the vet with him sometime this week. I also have to get ahold of the court house for something. Tomorrow I think I am going to hang out with my friend Steph for something to do. I also from here on out am staying on a steady work out plan and getting in shape, because summer is right around the corning and I must look good.
I rented three DVDS over the weekend for something to do. Terminator 3, Stigmata, and Confessions of a Dangerous Mind. They all were alright. Confessions of a Dangerous Mind was the best of the three. It has Sam Rockwell, Julia Roberts, Drew Barrymore, and George Cluney in it. Interesting flick. Stigmata was about a girl who goes through the feeling of the cruisifixtion of Christ. It was pretty crazy, I think the idea of the movie was good and different but I think it could have been directed a lot better and possibly could have had different actors and actresses for certain parts. Terminator 3 was off the hook. It was good to finally see the third installment.
Well I am very tired and waiting for my mom to get off work so I can get a ride back to my dad's. Just wanted to drop a post. Peace.
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| Good Friday |
[09 Apr 2004|06:30am] |
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I am told I should post here more. Well, if I had something to say I would. Well I am just hanging around on this Friday morning, smoking a cigarette, and watching the News. Easter is this weekend, yay? I am so tired of the stressful situation I am drug into on holidays with my parents. They expect me to relay messages back and forth to one another and find out what the other has planned. I could really care less. There area twenty-four hours in a day, the gives enough time for my sister, who is still 16, to see both of them on holidays. All they need to do is stop beating around the bush so to speak and find out when the other is making food so they can keep a decent amount of time in between. Well as far as I am concerned I could eat a hot pocket and be by myself on Christmas, Easter, etc. So anyways, this Easter I guess this is what is going down. I am going to go to church. (which happens usually on holidays) I am going with my dad, sister, and grandma. I guess we are going to grab lunch somewhere. Then I am going to go out to my mom's place with my sister and eat diner there. I am trying to watch how I eat, and work out more again, so even with Easter day coming I am not going to give in.
So now that I got all that bullshit out...
I check the mail yesterday because I am waiting on something from the court house dealing with my probation and I found a package from Minnesota. At first I thought it was from my girl Sarah, she is from Minn. Then when I opened it I was suprized to see it was a Philadelphia Eagles hat! I won the right to recieve it from underneathe a cap on a soda bottle like 5 months ago. I thought that they ran out of product but I guess it just took them a long time to send it. It is a damn nice hat. As nice as the 30 dollar one I bought from the mall. So now I have 2, this one is a light brownish/cream color, my old one (which still looks brand new) is dark green. I was happy about that.
I have been trying to work on a new poem, I have 24 poems written out since I elevated and matured my writing style and destroyed my old poems. The one I am trying to write is about the famous out law, Billy the Kid. I will probably write it today. Speaking about poems, I posted this one before on a forum website I am a part of, (facethejury.com) but I don't think anybody off the site got a chance to read it. It is my latest, so I will leave you with it and go lay down. Keep in mind I try to vary the topics I write about. With this one I decided to write about something the world looks at as something ugly and make it sound beautiful. It was a new plan and idea I came up with, for a change. This is what I came up with:
Their Innocent Guilt by Jake Matuska
Dawn is but a moment from commence,
Yet the half lit moon shows no dismay,
As if it's set to glow above these two amateurs of love,
Until their dying day
An easy fog hovers through the air
Washing out the view of the monkey bars they sat upon earlier that day
The focus of one another's stare is that which remains clear
Holding hands on seprate wooden swings, knee to knee
Their bare feet tangled together webbed in foreplay
Swaying slowly back and forth like the placid tides of the Alantic bay
Whispers from her mild voice chime a melody to he whom she loves
An innocent grin comes about his face
But how innocent can it be?
The wind shoves it's gust just enough to blow through her hair
With his fabric touch he pushes it behind her ears,
Leaving his hand upon her cheek
With their eyes locked safely within each others,
They come together for their initial kiss
Her top lip rests onto his bottem,
His top right below her nose
His bottom lip sucks upon her top,
Her bottom right above his chin
Backing their faces away,
And opening their eyes to both release a punch drunk stare
Two innocent grins sequeled by two guilty sighs
Each of them sense the coming of the sunrise
And they both realize the essence of what they share
Even if nobody else can know about it,
They do
As they stroll off into the fog, attached at the waist
On their journey back to a place they have both lived for over 14 years
A place called home
Before their mom and dad wake up
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| DVD COLLECTION is growing and I didn't even use Enzyte! |
[03 Apr 2004|04:05pm] |
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It's true, it's true.
I have 20 now.
Not much but it is a start. My goal is 1,000 +
:The List:
Texas Chainsaw Massacre
Young Guns
The Breakfast Club
Final Destination
Final Destination 2
Rounders
Stir of Echoes
The Ninth Gate
In The Mouth of Madness
The Burbs
Analyze This
Gang Related
12 Monkeys
Maverick
Empire Records
Wonderland
Y Tu Mama Tambien
The Monday Night War
Pulp Fiction
Ghost Ship
Nightmare on Elm Street Box Set (All 7 DVDS)
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I am going to go to Penny Pinchers in Northern Cambria and see if they have any new DVDS in. They sell them pretty cheap. I am going to take some videos up and trade them for cash. I don't want tapes anymore, it is all about the discs man. If I can't find anything good up there I am going to go to Wal*Mart and see what they have to offer. I don't really want to spend to much money, I need to keep saving to get out of Pennsylvania. Well I am going to go do that now. I will post if I get any new shit, cause I know ya'll want to know.
Peace
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| The Writing Board |
[22 Mar 2004|07:22pm] |
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Since my layout girl, Steph, forgot to add a link on my webpage to get to my board where I post my poetry and other writing things, I am going to update everybody with a link to it. There will be a link for it on layout #8.
Check out some of my stuff on the board.
Click Here
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| The Passion of Jake |
[21 Mar 2004|06:58pm] |
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Well my last post has now become a post of false hood. I guess what they say about people who assume is true, you make an ASS out of U and ME. I thought I was in for the job, I really did. It turns out that because of my now criminal background I could not get the job. I found this out when the company mailed me. Once my fines are paid completely off and I am released from probation, then my record will become clean, so they say. Well my fines are more than I even knew. I got in touch with my probation officer to let her know about the failed attempt to work at Sheetz and just wanted somebody to talk to. She agrees that it is hard to get as good job while my record is contaminated like so. She told me about something going out at the court house this coming week. A meeting for people who want to work to come. I am not sure if you get an actual check or if your fines just get chunks taken out of them. She gave me a number to call the guy who is in charge of it, but I havent been successful in reaching him as of yet. It pisses me off how hard it is to get ahold of people! Once I find out what this is all about, I may have to take part in it, because I dont have many other options available.
Lately I have just been chilling. I have been doing 2 paper routes for cash and just hanging around my dad's appartment. I do stuff there for him when he is at work and basically just talk to my girl Sarah in my free time. I also get online and sleep. This work at the court house may be something I do just to have something to do in general. The paper route has been drained for most of my days because I have to get up so early, that is the only bad thing. However I still will remain taking them even if I do this other thing.
Today after taking papers I went to church. Something I haven't done in a long time. I went with my dad, grandma, sister, and cousin Janine. We had plans afterwards to go see The Passion for Christ, which we did. We stopped to get a bite to eat at Taco Bell right after church, my cousin Adam was working at the time. He is a shift supervisor there now, which is cool for him. I seen the manager who knew me from the 1 day I worked there. He said when I quit that anytime I need a job he would give me one. So I walked up and asked him if was doing any hiring. He said sure and I told him if I get transpertation that I just may take him up on it. I need a car but don't have the cash really. Also my insurance is going to be sky high I am thinking, even though I haven't really called anybody for quotes yet. I am plotting a scheme to make a car happen though, hopefully.
The Passion movie was definately different. I don't really have anything I want to talk about with it though. I have opinions and thoughts but I am just going to keep them to myself for right now.
Well that is all.
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| Sheetz Inc. |
[05 Mar 2004|06:25pm] |
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Yea, I have a new job finally. I attended an interview for Sheetz in Patton. The job is cleaning, not register. I will start at 5.90 an hour and get a decent amount of hours. Once summer comes, the hours will increase. I went to Altoona for a piss test, which is required. I know I am in, my system has been clean for a while. I am going to keep the paper routes for more money, the manager of Sheetz is going to let me be scheduled from approximately 8 in the morning until afternoon, which is what I requested. So after I finish the paper route in the morning I can just shower and go to work. I opened a checking account so I can get my checks direct deposit. I am still saving for a car, and adding money to my savings account as frequently as possible.
That is all I feel like talking about.
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